Things are going to slide, slide in all directions

I'm going nowhere. I'd rather go somewhere instead. Why ponder life’s complexities? We are filled up one by one. I like you! I like you! I opened my mouth, and I tried, and I tried. But no words came out. ’Cause all these conversations wind on and on... I'll work it out. My way. So many faces. So lost. I think I may write you sometime via internet. No matter what the hackers find, they can’t change what I have said. These few words could be the last we ever speak. Do you think, maybe, you could love me or like me maybe? Maybe you’d look at me, you’d talk to me. I’m not that desperate, oh no, oh God, I am. How'd I end up here to begin with? I don’t know. Why do I start what I can’t finish? I'll never know who you are, and I don t deserve to. We would've been so... oh, never mind. Cause you simply deserve the best. And I don't blame you. And this is why I am leaving. And this is why I am lying when I say "I don’t love you no more." We’re fighting for no reason we both want the same things. And it's just like suicide. I really don’t want to die but we’ve been through this so many times. The brokenness inside, the hope and less collide. But I will not weep for those dying days. You don’t know me from the wind. You never will, you never did. Thoughts just defeat me. Numbness is effortless. I could get used to this. And then you got away, didn’t you babe... And till this day, sometimes I cry. No lies. Just love.

conceptualtrap (2006-03-16 05:10:30)

Thank you. That first paragraph was, well, I liked it.