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Falling back into a dream, I found a place you're here with me

originally published on livejournal · erisenyo · March 24, 2021

listening Stars - Quarter-Life Crisis & Ryan Hemsworth

mood sore

Skittering my way across the floor like an ant under a magnifying glass, I can feel their eyes fall on me with the same curiosity and quiet menace of a boy deciding whether to move the lens into the rays of the sun. Their hands drive me forward through this trial, relentless in momentum, every push a little more forceful, each test a bit more difficult to pass, and — barring success — the least expected is that I must endure. So, I suppose this is really nothing new.

Except now my movements are measured, all attempts analyzed and exertions examined, but to what end? Yes, I am a subject to be studied, but this lab rat aspires for more. Just as androids dream of electric sheep, visions of the prize at the end of this maze dance through my rodent brain — and I cannot help but hope that at the end of life's labyrinth, I might just reach that hearty hunk of Swiss...ler. Some distant day, if fantasy becomes reality, I will get to sink my teeth into you, feel you melt over my tongue, and swallow you down to digest every last delicious bit of you.